Fractured Crystalline Forms

You touch me again, and your shame and your shadows
Flow into me, darkening my insides, over taking my senses.
Indignity explodes, expanding into a devastating hunger,
But rough hands follow my curves, up and up
Shrouded in darkness,
I am easier to accept.
Never seeing the landscape laid bare before you, couldn’t be bothered to look.
Sharp, constant chagrin eats me alive, organ by organ, inch by inch.
It fractures my fantasy…

Starved skin fed by hollow, fervent, carnal touches
Licking at the friction between our bodies.
Your hands still wonder as we savor the bitter taste stuck to our tongues.
They take their time, exploring, remembering, committed
As if you would wither without my contact.
And I wonder what is behind your eyes, when your hands still over my heart, and your breathe catches, slightly

Are you afraid?
To be so close to the heart so battered by the push and pull of your carnivorous desire laced with such discomfiture.
So torn between what you covet,
And what is expected from someone that looks like you.
So you turn to ash and dust what you worship most.
Why leave me unmarred and whole?
Because, my cracked and disintegrated pieces are too convenient for you, I know.
So you put your stake in something you never intend to claim, but still want nonetheless.

Suffocating thirst infects my thoughts.
Was it all in my head?
No, even now, in a crowded room, you always know where I stand.
When I dare met your stare?
Lust and ignominy color your eyes.
If you do not want me, why can no other have me?

But, I take it all in.
All of it,
And I swallow it whole
I lose myself to your toxic flesh and poisoned kisses,
Diminishing as I take the empty attention you wield against me.
In the darkness, it’s easier to accept.