Fractured Crystalline Forms

My lines between heaven and hell blur so much, I am no longer sure if I am hallowed or blasphemous.
I seek sinful solace between soaked sheets,
My baptism in the sweat clinging our skin,
My revelation is sound in the rhythm of our bodies.
My paradise constructed from the shivers of pleasure I elicit from your body, escaped moans from a nirvana I bring you.
Finding my religion in the desperate collision of flesh,
My name whispered over and over, becomes my gospel.
I tune I return in kind.
We know our time is not long, the echoes of the clock reverberates through our distracted minds.
Resonating through every word we leave unspoken.
And, we’ll ignore it once it’s over, pretend we were just passing the time,
Say it was fun for what it was and shove it to the back of our minds.
Move on with the ones that stand next to us,
You’ll try your best to ignore the thoughts of me swirling in your brain,
But you fail every time.
The silence between us screams in protest.
You are the first chemical that altered my brain chemistry
The high I never came down from, a bad trip I never asked for.
Stole all the parts of me I never had the chance to miss.
I was stuck between you, and what you took of me
You had good intentions cut with bad decisions.
And no apologies.
I know now, that
I’d let my blood flow like tidal waves if it drowned out this last rotting piece of you from my marrow.