Fractured Crystalline Forms

Lines between heaven and hell blur,
No longer sure if I am hallowed-
or blasphemous.
Seeking sinful solace between soaked sheets

A baptism of sweat clinging to skin.
A revelation in the cacophony of,
Rhythmic bodies moving under cover.
Escaped moans build a false nirvana.

Shivers of pleasure collected and held,
From touch, you unwound & found
religion in the shallow collision of
alluring flesh to conceal the truth.

my name falling from your lips
sounds shameful as it slips between grunts
lustful words whispered in desperation
Misinterpreting your apparent adoration as gospel

The echoes of the clock reverberates
Rattling our traitorous bones
We know our time is not long
these vacant caresses fall short of love

This addiction altered my brain
Your remnants callously circling my blood vessels
the refuse to leave, lingering

& the lack of you?
a withdraw.

Stuck between you and what you took of me
You set out with good intentions
& cut them with bad decisions
& laced them with insouciance and
apprehension of accountability.

laid down with an outline of you,
for so long, I forgot I could
Stand on my own.

If rid this last rotting piece of you
from me
I’d let my blood flood
these compliant streets

& then I would

rinse & repeat.

-say no to drugs kids.